and to think that i saw it on mulberry street

jadefire @ 2005-07-21T15:28:00

2005-07-21T19:33:20Z

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!

DUMBLEDORE DIES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HOGWARTS IS CLOSING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SNAPE IS A TRAITOR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. IT'S HOOOOOOORRRRRRRIIIIIIIBBBBBBBLLLLLLLEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! GOODNESS ONLY KNOWS WHAT WILL HAPPEN NEXT AND VOLDEMORT IS MUCH MUCH MORE POWERFULLLLL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I SERIOUSLY WAS TEARING UP AT THE END, DURNING DUMBLEDORE'S FUNERAL. IT WAS TEEEEEEEEEEERRRRRRRRRRRRRIIIIIIIIIBBBBBBBLLLLLLLLLEEEEEEEEEEEEE.!!!!!

i love love love love love harry potter!

and awesomely harry and ginny get together YES!!!!! this is so awesome.

jadefire @ 2005-07-14T14:27:00

2005-07-14T18:27:57Z

alright i'm sick and tired of this thing. cheers ya'll.

jadefire @ 2005-07-07T13:24:00

2005-07-07T18:40:09Z

alrighty well i'm bored and i figured i may as well right another entry since i haven't deleted this yet. i wanted to save all the entries and print them out at one point, but i'm not too positive i want to do that anymore. anyway. an update:
-i work for property insight at the computerized title plant. i do stuff with legal documents and insurance, kinda. not really too positive what i do.
-i want to go see hot hot heat because i love them, and i want to see the bravery and my chemical romance and neil diamond but i think i might only be able to go to one of those shows.
-i have two kittens, i suppose they are new. yoshimi and chiyo, i'll post pictures when i get home. yoshimi is a little white siamese tabby mix, and he's in love with chiyo who is all black and she has a nursing issue [she was taken from her mother at such a young age so she sucks on yoshimi's ears ... it's rather weird but super cute]
-the next harry potter is coming out, i already have my book reserved, i have now for awhile. i love harry potter, and the chronicles of narnia, which i decided to read to refresh my memory, the movie is coming out at the end of the year and i can't wait. the new harry potter movie is going to suck though because they've cut out so much of the book, the dursleys aren't in it, the floo powder isn't in it. and a bunch of other jazz. oh and charlie and the chocolate factory is coming out in about a week or so, that's suppppppppppper exciting because it is supposed to be JUST LIKE the book. and roald dahl is only one of the best authors of alllllll time.
-blah i lost my train of thought. i suppose i'll just go back to work now. :(

jadefire @ 2005-02-16T22:34:00

2005-02-17T03:39:57Z

I AM IN THE PROCESS OF DELETING ALL OF MY JOURNALS....
RUEMULBERRY
PIXIEXJADE
XPENNYXXLANEX
AND THIS ONE
JADEFIRE
[[EDIT]]
ITS GOING TO TAKE ME AWHILE TO FULLY DELETE JADEFIRE AND XPENNYXXLANEX BUT THE OTHER TWO ARE GONE ALREADY
[[/EDIT]]

SO I BID YOU ALL ADU

AND HAVE ONE LAST JOURNAL ENTRY TO WRITE BEFORE I COMPLETELY DELETE THESE ALL...

this has been the worst day of my life. i've just lost half of my heart and i don't know what to do. so against my better judgement....i'm going to get completely drunk, puke my brains out and be up and ready for work at six thirty in the morning. that or i may not go to sleep tonight and instead take an 8 hour long bath with my clothes on, write in my journal, cry my eyes out, and sing depressing love songs as loud as i possibly can.
end.

LOVE.
MS. JESSICA MICHELLE BRADSHAW
NEWLY SINGLE....AGAIN.

OH YEA...SINCE THERE WON'T BE ANY JOURNAL LEFT TO COMMENT IN, NOT THAT MANY PEOPLE COMMENT IN HERE IN GENERAL ... YOU CAN EMAIL ME IF YOU WISH.
ANDTOTHINKTHATISAWITONMULBERRYSTREET@hotmail.com

[[edit]]
after a lot of crying and talking things are working out better....thanks for the comments :) i'm still deleting all my journal's though :/
[[/edit]]

jadefire @ 2005-02-07T17:52:00

2005-02-08T02:06:01Z

this is a poem i wrote ...

its called: my job is the best
we all get to wear scrubs like pajamas
and sing 'sweet home alabama'
and make appointments for patients
who sound like secret agents
cause they're losing their voices
and can't hear noises
cause they're ears
have aged years
even though they're young
and not too high strung.
oh i love my job
my job is the best
and i won't ever sob
over the great loss of rest
i've had in the past week
its really ok though
cause my jobs pretty sleek
..now i'm going to go...

......we really don't sing sweet home alabama, it just rhymed with pajamas. we do however get famous people coming in because they're voice boxes get sore. see that's how awesome the doctors i work for are...they treat famous people!! ooo ahh....i'm really not that enthusiastic about it because i've yet to see one i like ... or rather see one because the one that was supposed to come in today either came in after i left or dr. boger [or huhn] went to treat them elsewhere. anyway we were closed either way and we put their manager on hold which was awfully funny because nobody knew who it was or cared and we accidentally forgot them. they obviously didn't listen to the little recording that says call 911 after five o'clock because the patient specialists would like to go home and so would the nurses. ok now i'm just rambling but i had a pretty good day so i'm gonna go. and i'm not too sure if any of this makes sense but its ok because i'm kinda writing this down so i remember it some time in the future. sigh.

this just completely made my day

2005-02-06T05:25:25Z

What stupid celebrity are you destined to kill? by daydreamer8852
Name
Birthdate
You killed
With a
On	October 19, 2022

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jadefire @ 2005-02-04T15:09:00

2005-02-04T20:23:22Z

ok i don't really know what i feel like writing because basically i hate this thing now because its all a crock of shit and nobody really even cares when it comes down to it. but i feel like ranting about things that have been on my mind and so i'm going to do it so the public can read it so they can roll their eyes and say how pathetic it is. and it is. and i don't care but 'obviously i care because i wrote about it and how stupid it is and that i don't care which means i do.' make sense? ok so lets put it this way, my life is a huge drill just digging a deeper and deeper hole. a 1000 dollar hole. and i'm not doing very well in the getting the hell out department. granted i have a good job and i'm paying off debts but its also going to take me forever because there is still stuff that i have to save for as well. and i'm sick and i'm tired and i'm ticked off that this should happen. and it all started with someone that just has no idea what they are doing in their life and is overly emotional. and a few people know who i'm talking about but i'm not going to specify. i just feel so damn shitty that i'm the one having to pay off the debts and i'm the one having to borrow the money and i don't want to but no one else seems to want to come through with what they promised. ok i'm just going to stop for now. i suppose i'll finish later. that or maybe i'll just delete this thing. maybe that's a better idea.

jadefire @ 2005-01-29T19:48:00

2005-01-30T00:46:35Z

[01] reply with your name and i will write something about you.

[02] i will then tell what song[s] remind me of you.

[03] next, i will tell you who you remind me of, celebrity/animated or otherwise.

[04] last, I will try to name a single word that best describes you.

[05] put this in your journal!

jadefire @ 2005-01-20T08:59:00

2005-01-20T14:00:55Z

i hate this thing.

jadefire @ 2004-12-18T02:45:00

2004-12-18T07:51:42Z

i'm at doug's using his computer and listening to him play guitar and sing while watching his little kitten (that looks like puss in boots from shrek 2) play around under the table. doug has a great voice, i'm shocked actually cause i didn't think that from his normal voice. anyway. he's reading this now. well he and i have been talking for quite sometime about looooots of stuff including our opinions on people from the shop. no bad opinions just thoughts we had that we hadn't necessarily voiced to anyone inparticular. does that make the slightest bit of sense to anyone? well panda came over to my apartment last night and i felt awful because he seemed to be really upset by his parents, which i'd never seen him like that before. bobby and i (as well as eric/erock) ran into heather the other day at fridays that was interesting. hadn't talked to her in such a long time that it was almost weird. do you ever get that feeling when you run into someone you haven't talked to in a long time and someone who you didn't talk to much anyway. my birthday wasn't that bad, i got a new feather down comforter from my mom and my dad is building me a bed we're going to get the wood tomorrow. i'm just excited to be able to use a computer because i haven't had much access to one since mikey died and ever before then i didn't have much access to one, seeing as nan will bitch her head off if i get on the one at home and mine is broken. bleh. my birthday weekend was soo off though because of what happened with my puppy and i don't really like to get on my livejournal to much because i still see that picture of him and it makes me realllllllly uber sad. anyway i'll stop ranting now.

jadefire @ 2004-12-10T20:38:00

2004-12-11T01:56:15Z

tomorrow is my birthday, i'll be 19.

well today i called bobby around 5ish -5.30ish and he told me that my puppy and his mum's was dead. but of course nicole i thought it was just a prank. then we get to his house and find out that the puppies were mauled to death by a mastiff this morning and possibly by a pack of hounds that live next door. i can't even explain to you how off i feel. and nicole and i knew who it was that killed them the moment they said a dog killed them. because that damn mastiff was trying as hard as it could to get the puppies last week when nicole and i were playing with them. i can't even write anymore.
cheers

jadefire @ 2004-12-05T18:40:00

2004-12-05T23:40:23Z

1. My name
2. Where did we meet?
3. Take a stab at my middle name
4. How long have you known me?
5. When is the last time we saw each other?
6. Do I smoke?
7. Do I believe in God?
8. When you first saw me what was your impression?
9. Month of my Birthday?
10. Color hair?
11. Color eyes?
12. Do I have any siblings?
13. What's one of my favorite things to do outdoors?
14. What's one of my favorite things to do indoors?
15. Do you remember one of the first things I said to you?
16. What's my favorite type of music?
17. What is the best feature about me?
18. Am I shy or outgoing?
19. Would you say I am funny ha-ha or funny sarcastic?
20. Am I a rebel or do I follow all the rules?
21. Would you consider me an acquaintance, a friend, or a good friend?
22. Would you call me a hippie, glam, nerdy, snobby, or something else?
23. Have you ever seen me cry?
24. If there were one good nickname for me what would it be?
25. Are my parents still together?
26. If I had broccoli stuck in my teeth would you tell me?
27. What book am I reading right now?

[[edit]]
if my twin had lived this thing would read:
1. rachel
2. in our mother's womb
3. michelle
4. almost 19 years and 9 months
5. today
6. yes but you really shouldn't
7. you try
8. i wouldn't remember we were just born and more concerned about being fed and sleeping
9. december
10. dishwater/dirty blonde
11. green/brown used to be dark brown but started to turn green when you started to grow up
12. me, nan, austin
13. swing
14. sleep, read
15. wah
16. everything
17. me
18. both
19. both
20. you try to be a rebel but you follow the rules too
21. sister
22. weirdo
23. uh yea
24. dork
25. yeap
26. duh
27. who knows

see and that is if my twin were filling it out, because my twins name would have been jessica michelle and i would have been rachel michelle
but that's not how things worked out.

alrighty well i just felt in a weird mood so i'm going to skit and skiddadle now. cheers.

jadefire @ 2004-12-03T11:02:00

2004-12-03T15:59:47Z

i'm nearly on the verge of being upset with this thing. i know sometimes i post stupid entries where i'd really like some sympathy from friends but the majority of the time i really wish i would get people's opinions on things. oh well.

cheers.

jadefire @ 2004-12-02T22:57:00

2004-12-03T04:00:46Z

so nicole. i bombed it. big time. i got a 'd'. good thing i'm not going back to valencia in the spring. i'm at bobby's right now, using the computer. i'm blah, stuffed and tired.

i'm bored out of my skull, i kinda want to go to walmart but i think i'm going to just go home and work on my french some. i don't know if i really feel like working on french though. tonight was brian (dewitt)'s birthday dinner, it was nice we all went to applebees. 'cept for joe and big because joe was tattooing big and big had to go to work. joe never goes to anything, he showed up at tara's party for about ten minutes then left. blah. my internet is still skrewed up and big wants to let his friend come over and fix it, but i really just want brian (panda) to do that if anyone.

alright well i'm gonna jet.
cheers

jadefire @ 2004-11-28T18:53:00

2004-11-29T00:04:08Z

my computer at home is broken. it sucks. i think it is because someone was doing the wrong thing to it. that doesn't make sense to anybody but me, and i don't care.
i am jobless for a week or so.
i am moving out of valencia trace at the end of january.
i need to make a whole shit load of money.
i am starting paul mitchell in the fall next year.
i hate birthdays and mine is in two weeks.
i hate going over to my parents house now. i feel so out of place, and it sucks because i love spending time with my mom and dad. i have a blast when we meet at places and have lunch or something. but i hate going over there. my sister is awfully mean to me. and i hate that because i just try and want to get along with her. she just always knows how to hurt my feelings and everytime she attacks she succeeds. and i'm stupid because i just continue to do nice things for her when all i get in return is crude words and arguments.
i miss my cat. i miss my puppy.
i'm upset because my dad is supposed to be building me a bed but i don't know if that will happen because my sister wants another bookshelf and a car and a new bed and my desk and my room[which she's gotten] and my cat and my things i left behind. i quit.

jadefire @ 2004-11-28T16:58:00

2004-11-28T21:59:17Z

i just had a huge entry and my retarded computer lost it so screw it i'll update later.

jadefire @ 2004-11-19T11:13:00

2004-11-19T16:12:14Z

its huge, i'll fix it later, but that's mikey. he's attacking one of the dolls that erik gave to me. anyway. i'm tired and i have to work ten hours again tonight. i have a lot of decisions i have to make soon. and i'm stressed out because of them. okie doke. cheers.

jadefire @ 2004-11-17T22:16:00

2004-11-18T03:15:30Z

BOBBY AND I GOT A PUPPY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! his name is mikey [pronounced mickey] he looks like this: [i haven't had a chance to get any pictures of him yet]

isn't he just the most adorable looking puppy!!!!!!!!! yea...he's living with his parents for right now, kinda how frank is living with mine, but in a few months we should have a nice new place that allows puppies and kitties and maybe a bunny .... i don't know if bobby'll let me get a bunny after bill ... but maybe. okie doke well i am gonna go
oh yea i forgot, i went to the doctor today to get a ring that was stuck off of my finger and it turns out they think i have a couple things, a disease, something else, and arthritus [excuse my spelling i'm not even looking at what i'm typing i'm so damn tired] anywa and i have to have blood tests taken soon. so ... isn't my puppy cute??!?!?!??!?!?!??!?!?!??!?!?!??!?!?!?? OF COURSE HE IS!!!! HE'S A PUPPY!!!

jadefire @ 2004-11-16T09:47:00

2004-11-16T14:47:44Z

au revoir steak n' shake. put my two weeks notice in last saturday. hell yea! i'll be free!!!!

cheers-
jes

an update to a journal i never update anymore

2004-10-17T22:21:22Z

hmm, there is tons to write but i'm tired so i'll only do whats on my mind right now
the pros and cons of friday night steak n' shake.

cons
-the shift ... 8-4 ... which truley means ... 8-6.30or7
-the strain on my arm and on my feet, i swear i have feet splints if it's even possible ...
-the bar rush at 3-5 am ... drunken rude customers are never fun
-people who walk-out on their checks
-the air being on cold the entire night and day and that fact that mikey, our night supervisor, can't fix it
-not being able to take tables that aren't seated in my section, especially when they ask for me, i.e. bobby and miles.
-joy....oh my goodness....that woman!! all you who are customers have no idea how evil she and cyndee are!! yes granted they're nice and bubbly at the table but no no no no no back behind the service station ... it's hell. no one wants to work friday nights because of them. they're so mean and they say things to make you feel like shit and they gang up on you. oh and they try to get you in trouble for being socialble with your table (which they do all the time), they say you have attitude when you don't (me going out to my table to greet them when they wanted me to get waters is not attitude ... sorry) and they're just plain evil, mean, manipulative, to put it bluntly bitches. everyone on saturday night just sits around and makes fun of them because they're just so mean and off.
-cyndee......this one is the worst, she thinks she owns the store, she wouldn't stop screaming about how she was going to kill someone if she didn't get out of the store. she takes things that should be taken lightly very seriously, i.e. the computers going down, she could have easily been calm about it, was she???? NO! she bitched to mikey that i was talking to my friends instead of taking care of my table, hmm.....my big tables were all my friends. how odd ... sorry that they seated themselves in my section cyndee, sorry i was doing my job and taking their orders and getting along with them and being nice to ensure that i got a good tip. arg. oh and she's just an insane person, on saturday night, we weren't even that busy yet and she came in with her younger sister to buy her sister milkshakes, well while her sister was waiting at the bar, cyndee came behind the servers station and started to work as if we were all stupid little dunce-caps that didn't know what the heck we were supposed to be doing.

pros
-i walked home with 150 bucks
-nikki came
-brian, tara, erock, marvin, and doug came
-bobby and miles came
-amanda was there, she's such a sweet heart but she has an awful problem with her mouth
-i saw matt and keiko, but i didn't get to talk to them, plus cyndee was taking their table and i wanted to stay as far away as possible from that parasite.
-i walked home with 150 bucks!!!
-cate, she is actually not that bad at all, she's really funny actually.
-andrea, she's a sweet heart and she dislikes friday nights just as much as me

ok i think i'm done for now.

oh but if anyone EVER orders a salad, MAKE SURE you ask your server to wash their hands before making your salad. i always wash mine, but you can never be sure with the other servers.

much love-jes

jadefire @ 2004-05-02T22:45:00

2004-05-03T02:43:33Z

that's mine
and he's beautiful

jadefire @ 2006-01-01T07:45:00

2004-04-25T11:47:02Z

comment to be added ... you know the drill
♥